travel’s ugly stepsister, jet lag

this could be another one of my “i didn’t ever want to come home to america” blogs.

but with the strength of a lion, i will try to restrain myself from ranting blogging about my deep need to be in a foreign country twenty-four-seven.

for those who know what i mean to be in a place you know you don’t belong, i will leave it at that.

otherwise, good morning. it is 4am and i am wide awake thanks to travel’s ugly stepsister, jet lag. although i know a few people who wake up at this time daily, i find it rather a curse. a reminder that i am not where i am supposed to be anymore. a conscious sign asking me if i made the right decision to leave that time zone for the next. when it occurs at the beginning of your trip, adrenaline is your advocate and drives you to simply adjust. but when it is at the end, it turns into an arch enemy – a best friend that no longer wants to talk to you.

so here i am in the early morning waiting for starbucks to open up so i could feel some sense of normalty. until then, i ponder about where my life is and how i ended up being wide awake waiting for a notoriously early coffee chain to get out of bed.

travel, or rather, being in a foreign land does something to me.

it is not one of those “it inspires me” triggers that everyone writes about after going to hawaii for a week. no.

i can’t truly explain it in one blog. for years, i told my little sister of my experiences abroad. and i could tell her every story i had but it wouldn’t be enough. she had to see life in another country on her own time. this experience can possibly be wrapped up in one song by john mayer. he wrote the words that i have had a hard time explaining to my sister and hundreds of others who have asked me about my trips. you have to see it with your own eyes.

I’m writing you to
Catch you up on places I’ve been
And you, held this letter
Probably got excited, but there’s nothing else inside it

Didn’t have a camera by my side this time
Hoping I would see the world through both my eyes
Maybe I will tell you all about it when I’m
In the mood to lose my way with words

Today skies are painted colors of a cowboy cliche’
And strange how clouds that look like mountains in the sky
Are next to mountains anyway

Didn’t have a camera by my side this time
Hoping I would see the world through both my eyes
Maybe I will tell you all about it when I’m
In the mood to lose my way but let me say

You should have seen that sunrise with your own eyes
It brought me back to life
You’ll be with me next time I go outside
No more 3×5’s
I Guess you had to be there
I Guess you had to be with me
Today I finally overcame
Tryin’ to fit the world inside a picture frame

okay, starbucks alarm clock went off, i am over and out!
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